Missed You

I'm always reminded
when I look in the mirror
that you're not here
to hold me. Yeah.
I'm always asking
why you choose to neglect me
why you wish to
leave me alone.
Maybe you just
don't want me at all.

I'm always wishing
that I could have someone
who could always hold me tight.
Well you've been appointed
so why won't you say alright.
I just want you
and only you
is that alright?
What I'm saying
very true
is I've missed you.

I ask myself now
why do you leave us
for the money?
He's like a rock
and you're never here.
Did you ever
think that this might be hard
for me?
I'm always asking
why didn't she call me?
And when you do
it's like you're not there.
I really need you.
Because you're
supposed to be there.

I'm always wishing
that I could have someone
who could always hold me tight.
Well you've been appointed
so why won't you say alright?
I just want you
and only you.
Is that alright?
What I'm saying
very true
is I've missed you.

Oh honey honey
are you my mother?
Or are you just the ghost who pays the bills?
Maybe Maybe
That is the very reason
why I can never see you here.
Well all I know is

I'm always wishing
that I could have someone
who could always hold me tight.
Well you've been appointed
so why won't you say alright?
I just want you
and only you.
Is that alright?
What I'm saying very true
is I've missed you.

For the past thirteen years of my life I've been missing you. (x six)

I'm always wishing
that I could have someone
who could always hold me tight.
Well you've been appointed
so why won't you say alright?
I just want you
and only you.
Is that alright?
What I'm saying
very true
is I've missed you.
I've missed you.
I've missed you.

The End.

By the way, sorry this is so long. While singing it and making it, I had no idea it was eight minutes. If you don't want to listen to the whole thing, I won't take it personally. (:

Me Singing Forget You

What does time do to me?

Time matures some,
While it weakens others.
To reach an understanding of oneself,
It takes time,
time to mature.

--My Mother's Ancient Poetry Book

The petals will all fall.

Love is like a flower.

One that you become interested in

by peering into the glass window

of the flower shop.

So, out of curiosity,

you picked that flower.

That fine,

beautiful,

pure,

rose.

For the first few days,

you have the flower in a pretty,

glass vase.

Or in a relationship,

the honeymoon stage.

But eventually,

that ends,

and the rose dies,

and the petals fold up,

lose color,

and fall to the floor

with dispair.

After all,

you can't spell lover,

without over.

No regrets is my new policy.

The other day I found out that one of my good friends was a slut. Well, she isn't really a slut. She just did a slutty thing in the past. I took this in, thinking, "How can I possibly be friends with someone who did something so disgusting?" The next morning, we went swimming. Sitting poolside, I asked her, "Did you regret it? She replied, "What do you mean?" We hadn't really talked about it since the night before. I explained further to her. After some thought, she said, "I don't regret any of it. It's in the past and I can't take it back now, so why should I waste my time worrying about something that's already dead and over?" It made me rethink a lot of things, that statement. So, why waste time worrying about a moment in the past? It will only cause more trouble for yourself. No regrets is my new policy.

The Only Option

Sorry I've been so busy and disconected, but I'm back now. Here's a song I wrote called "The Only Option." Hope you like it! :)

Today.

Today I went to work with my Dad after school to avoid my little brother. My Dad's a priest, so this location was his church. At first, all I did was eat cookies out of the coffee hour kitchen. But I had my laptop, so I filmed myself singing and playing the piano to a song that I wrote called "Today". The quality's not great and I may have messed up a few times so bear with me. But I hope you like it. :)

Lyrics:

1. There's a person inside of me,

saying let me out.

There's a little person within me saying I needa' shout.

I say okay,

But you better stand up to the croud.

I say okay,

But you better make me proud.

So proud.

Refrain:

Today's the day I'm going to tell you that I'm more than just a girl.

Today's the day I'm going to tell you that I'm going to change the world.

Today's the day that all the positives overcome the shame.

Today's the day I'm going to start on my road to fame.

2. My voice aint loud enough to overcome the noise.

My voice is now overcoming it because of my little voice.

The one that I let out from inside my chest.

Now everyone treats me like a gold treasure chest.

Refrain:

Today's the day I'm going to tell you that I'm more than just a girl.

Today's the day I'm going to tell you that I'm going to change the world.

Today's the day that all the positives overcome the shame.

Today's the day I'm going to start on my road to fame.

To fame, to fame, to fame.

(Refrain in higher octive)

(Refrain to end of song)